Today was too much. So much that I’ve been in bed since 9pm reading my book. I’m so happy it’s the weekend, that’s all I’m saying!
I’ve been having wicked headaches this week, it feels like had them more often than not…
Still managed to leave the house today at lunchtime and it made for a gorgeous walk in the autumn sunshine. A chance for some big deep breaths of fresh air which definitely helped. I’m really pleased the rain helped off, even just for our midday walk!
It’s all a bit of a slog right now, not really having a life outside of our home, the world feeling like it’s being ran by the worst possible people. It’s hard to keep your heard up through it all.
So tonight Nic and I decided to batton down our hatches away from the outside world. We made a lush curry for dinner and had a movie night with popcorn. It was so lovely, to try to forget everything for one night… then I accidentally checked Twitter… Ugh…
Well, there’s one way to cheer me up! I painted my nails again this evening, and they’re incredibly sparkly! I’m still not feeling 100% but I had a lovely evening after work, chatting to my mum for an hour whilst I did my nails.
I’m trying so hard to do things for me. Clothing choices that make me feel bad-ass, nails that shine bright as the evenings draw in, lazing about in my jammies on the weekend if I feel like it. I’m so much happier in myself than I was as a teenager and it’s a wonderful feeling. Knowing whatever I look like on the outside, I’m still me inside and that’s what matters the most. And if I love me on the inside, I’ll learn to love my outside too!
I’ve got a right cold! I’ve finally bitten the bullet and stayed home all day today. I’ve read a lot of my new book, napped for two hours, had a bath and made a delcious dinner with help from Nic. Feeling pretty sorry for myself most of the day though… I’m hoping a good sleep will sort me out.
Here’s a slightly relevant (but bad) photo of said homemade pie! I’m already excited to have this for lunch and dinner again this week as it was super tasty.
The weather today was a picture perfect autumnal day. Jumper weather, crispy leaves and sunshine, well no rain at least. We walked to the park to practice skating more! I’m slowly improving at stopping, bit by bit I seem to be getting there, and becoming more confident.
I also got a load of reading done around that. Finishing my 33rd book of the year and starting my 34th! Officially now the most books I’ve ever read in one year which is fun. I feel like I’ve gone through some real meaty ones as well which is good.
Just in time before London moves to tier 2… Liv came around this evening for a socially distanced dinner! She left before midnight, so we’re all legal and it was such a wonderful evening. Drinking wine and talking for hours, it’s filled me with enough joy to hopefully see me through this next lockdown.
I hope everyone is doing okay. There are a few tough weeks/months ahead of us, but it’s all for the greater good to protect our most vulnerable. And it’s good to remember it’s all temporary, we will get through this. Much love x
I bought these jeans as my skater on Tony Hawks wears a pair and I thought they were awesome. I’m absolutely in love with my real life pair!
Clothes make me so happy. I love being able to express myself and feel bold and confident in fun outfits. I’m also now very lucky to be in a position where I am able to avoid fast fashion and shop at more long lasting and sustainable brands which makes me feel a lot better about buying new clothes.
I’m really getting into the habit of doing enjoyable practical things when I have some downtime. Today at lunchtime I was feeling a bit queezy so didn’t eat, it meant I had time to get some sewing done instead!
I’m keeping my sewing machine pulled in and just below my desk so it’s easy for me to pull up to work on, no more excuses. I fitted an elastic band to the top of one of the pouches I made for Nic. It was way more fiddly than I thought it would be, but I got it done then popped my sewing machine back under my desk. I’ve found if I make my hobbies more easily accessible, I’m much less likely to fall back onto killing time on social media. Another thing I do is have the kindle app on my phone, I always have my book with me, virtually wherever I am!
A few weeks back I realised I hadn’t left the house for four days. I was shocked when I realised this as pre-covid I was walking at least two hours everyday and wouldn’t have been able to tell you the last day I didn’t leave the house. I was getting sad and my back was hurting, I needed to get out of this new habit and quick.
Nic and I now have a rule that we must leave the house at least onve every single day. Most of the time it’s at least an hours walk, but occasional we’ll do a twenty minute walk around the block just to get out. Today it was chucking it down with rain all day, but we still dragged ourselves out to the shop and back for an hours walk in the dark. It’s doing me the world of good mentally, and my back has stopped aching!